I don’t pay attention to the World ending.
It has ended for me many times
And began again in the morning
~anonymous
This is NOT a sympathy post
So please don’t send me sympathy or think there is something going on.
I just want to express myself to bring hope.
Even if it’s just the smallest amount of hope for you.
~I am with you on the journey
Aroha
Lisa
This is early 2017 walking with one of my children.
My life has ended many,
many times since then.
It has felt unbearable.
So many dark nights of the Soul.
It has felt lonely and excruciating.
Like I wouldn’t get through.
And yet when I look back I was right on the edge of a newer me.
A stronger, somehow wiser version of myself.
I wished I had known that during those rock bottom times.
That was what was happening.
That I was shedding old versions of myself that sure as hell weren’t working for me.
In fact they were killing me
Strangling the life out of me.
My soul was asking me to stand up for myself.
Walk in my truth.
Speak up for myself and not stay where abuse was being served up at the table.
By friends, family or in my intimate relationships.
All I could trust was my deep inner knowing telling me
And my body
I could feel it,
It would wake me at night and tell me the truth of what was going on
Every single time
It was right
I just had to trust it
Trust my bodies wisdom
Trust myself
Take action.
Most of all though,
I had to know that I am never alone
That I always have my (Tupuna) Ancestors and whanau (family) on the other side
Supporting me
Loving me
Walking with me.
Whispering wisdom gently into my ear.
Guiding me.
Take care
You matter
You are important
I am wishing you Peace and Strength
~I am with you on the journey
Arohanui
Lisa