Kia ora friends and whanau
I wanted to say kia ora
and let you know where my heart has been
As I've been missing in action from my social media spaces.
I went to ground ~ so to speak.
Through most of these past few months
Since the start of 2023
I started the year with a lot of unexpected changes and then a heap of upheaval
Throw in a Cyclone
and 10 days later flash flooding and an overnight evacuation
Much of my energy has been needed to move several times since then
dive into my client
and recover
I realised pretty quickly that I need to pull my energy in,
go quietly, take stock
work through it all at a very slow pace
Take care of myself
and of my energy
and process the sudden changes
and emerge at some stage
hopefully intact
I didn't want to talk about what was happening for me
As I was in a deep process
and I barely knew myself from day to day
I knew though that I would be
different from before
reshaped
turned inside through the process
deeply humbled
I’ve done a lot of yelling in my car
thrown a few rocks around
and let steam off in the process
Got up
Dusted myself off
Continued as I was....
I took to weaving harakeke puti puti
weaving flax flowers
As a way of working through the grief
and suddenness
It has been incredibly healing and therapeutic
and felt so deeply supported in so many lovely ways by my Tupuna and Kaitiaki
Ancestors, guides and whanau (family) on the other side
Now I feel like I am finally emerging
There were many dark nights of the soul
Where I was like wtf
I wanted to run
far, far away from it all
This painful feeling
I knew I had to face it all though
because my sh*te would just follow me
where ever I went
and here I am
I feel like I popped out the other end
just last weekend
It feels so good to back
I hope you are doing all ok
I know many of my friends and clients have been through
similar, similar but different versions of what I have been through
So if this is you
I SEE YOU
and please take very good care of yourself
The photo here gives you a bit of a look into what I have been working on.
While I have been in my restorative, what the hells going on, oh I think I’m alright- oh maybe I’m not …..oh the suns shining again, I’ve got this -spaces !
Big as hugs and aroha from my heart to yours
I’m with you on the journey
Arohanui
Lisa
xxx
