Some random thoughts and observations from this year so far
In the days after the Tornado hit I had so many generous friends message me and say if you need anything please let me know
I absolutely loved that they were thinking of me - it landed in my heart so big, and I honestly shed a lot of tears receiving all the messages
knowing that my friends/whanau took the time out to reach out and message me and the manaaki/ care I could feel
In those first few days
the shock, exhaustion and being in survival mode and needing to sort the basics, safety, power, food and a good friend close by to stay with, and figuring out a way to get there safely
and the fact that I actually thought I was gonna die that night and doing my best to process this
gave me zero ability to know what I needed,
and also to have to confront and work through the fact that I don’t like asking for things that I really need- in my life anyway, from friends and whanau
And definitely not in the middle of a wee crisis
So on reflection, and now that a month has gone by since the Tornado
I’ve learnt that now when I have a good friend or whanau member go through something big
I need to do for them, what feels best and easiest for me at that time
drop into my heart and know what they may need
and then just go right ahead and do it because it’s likely, they’ll be in a heap of shock and won’t even know what they need nor be able to voice it
also check in with myself and if I am at full capacity myself at the time
I can send them aroha/love, hold them in my prayers, hold space for them and know in my heart the power of this
and trust that they will feel this from me on some deep level in the subtle realms
so, so many deep reflections since that Tornado
Sooooooo many……
